friends in low places... and bigger fish to fry

tonight i found that the things i believe in are very much a reality and despite feeling completely freaked out about my life in general that i have friends that love me... love me for me... the good and the bad of me. i'd love to say more and go into detail but i have bigger fish to fry.... bigger things to face and to deal with.

i'll leave you with garth brooks... didja know i love garth brooks? most country music really... it's a part of my past that i secretly love about myself. i'll also leave you with the most wonderful thing about life... gratitude. love and gratitude to john and rhett... and the inkling that if i do everything in love there can be no wrong step or mess that can't be brought back to right.

top 15 movies

here they are in order:
braveheart:


last of the mohicans:


amelie:


dances with wolves:


the patriot:


elizabeth:


joan of arc:


legends of the fall:


armageddon:


the royal tenenbaums:


the constant gardener:


the motorcycle diaries:


hotel rwanda:


50 first dates:


tombstone:

i have fantastic taste that supercedes everyone else's taste

me: oh its true

Big: I'll give you the benefit of the doubt, simply because I'm pretty sure I don't know everything, and I'm also pretty sure that you do.

me: i just said in my blog i'm stupider than you

Big: Yeah, but everyone knows that's not true.

It

It can't be.

me: it can be and it is

Big: How about we settle on being mostly equal, only that you have fantastic taste that supersedes everyone else's taste, and I'm friggin' phenomenal with doodads and whirlygigs? Does that work?
me: hahah

oh yeah it does

Big: Awesome.

it could be lack of sleep

if you do nothing else tonight or today you have to listen to the juno soundtrack below... because it's fabulous and so am i. i should have listened to roo when he told me to get it weeks ago... i'm so stupid compared to him...




it could be that i've been super super stressed out and feeling a little lonely and lost... it could be that because of that i've had very little sleep... it could simply be that i am a girl and cry at silly things like movies BUT....

i watched juno today (laying in bed with my headphones and handy dandy shiny shiny silver laptop) and i fell in love and then i cried. then i watched it again and took a nap. it's amazing. it's wonderful. it's hilarious and touching and probably the best movie i've seen in a long long time.

it makes me believe in movies again.

so my problems aren't solved and i certainly don't have the answers but today was a good good day.

i've been thinking about valentine's day...

have i mentioned how much i hate valentine's day????
i really hate it and so this year i've decided to become my own valentine.

yeah i've been thinking about it and i've made my wish list:

the sabrina bag from gucci below... it's beautiful... i do wish i had one that was like this but redder and not leather (because no one wants an animal to die so i can have a FABULOUS bag)













the bubblegum pink solitaire diamond.... i'm so in love with this ring. talk about fucking bling. i want the fake diamond version of this because it's all just carbon in the end right? the only thing it needs is a real platinum band / setting. and then to be in my life.




i'm in the market for a pink computer.... and this might just be the one i buy myself...










and lastly to replace the sidekick.... this hot little number