my new job

it's at the art museum here.... and the painting the death of marat is on display... by jacques-louis david... and it's more amazing than the last time i saw it. more beautiful and more compelling... somehow it seemed so familiar and brought back such strong memories. have i mentioned i love love love art?


below is my one of my other all time favourites: jules bastien-lepage's joan of arc from the metropolitan museum of art. i could look at it all day.

i would be a liar...

i would be a liar if i didn't admit that i've been daydreaming about owning these shoes.... i don't even think i like shoes like this... oh but i do. i totally do.... i've been dreaming about them in unhealthy ways....

while going to work

things haven't been going as smoothly in my life as i would like them to... sometimes it feels like it's an uphill battle just to get things done. one thing i do know is that i need a new work wardrobe and i have isolated the following items as having something to do with it:











yeah... i know... i'm supposed to be good at shopping because i'm a girl... but i totally suck at it. i like weird shoes, the color black and handbags. is that a wardrobe???? help!

let's put our cards on the table

let's take care of this first:


"i'm sinking to the bottom of my everything that freaks me out" - blue october

there are somethings that have been on my mind for awhile that i'd like to put on the table so to speak.... i think just getting it off my chest will make a huge difference... despite what you have been told about your internet experience.. the internet works both ways. i am fully capable of tracking blog views. mostly i am happy to know that people are enjoying what i've written and that they are visiting regularly. but there are a few people that check it regularly that leaves me with a weird feeling... it almost seems as if it's being checked to see if i'm posting things that could be used against me... like to answer certain questions about me and what i do in my life. so i've made an executive decision to give you the information you are looking for... i feel it's only fair to reward such constant attention.
1. i don't do drugs... unless tylenol, benadryl and vitamin b12 are considered drugs
2. i don't really drink... and when i do my child isn't under my supervision
3. i don't sleep around... in fact it's been a really long time since i've had sex and even longer since it was enjoyable
4. i'm not dating... and not because of some pining away for a person but because after my horrendous experience this summer in alaska i decided i'm not allowed to date anyone for a long long time
5. i'm not ever going to post things on my blog that will give you inside track information about my life... it's just my rambling thoughts, opinions, music i like and occasionally a movie clip
6. i have no opinion about your life and i stay away from commenting about it because quite frankly you are inconsequential to me
7. although i love the views and hope you just like reading my stuff i wish you'd figure out that you only need to check my blog once a day and if you save the link to this little homepage (right up top after http://www... in fact you can just bookmark it right now) you can stop searching for me in google... my google stats are through the roof and i appreciate that but geez... twice a day through a search engine? get a life.
8. the last time we saw each other (well talked on the phone) i just said "see ya" and i meant it in sort of a i didn't want you to feel bad about the fact that you were an absolute sausage head (thats a codyism) for 4 months and i had really become grateful that we weren't going to see each other again... but i didn't mean it literally in a you're going to stalk me online sort of way... perhaps it was unclear... but i hope we're on the same page with all our cards on the table.

i assume my stats will drop significantly after this post since i'm guaranteed about 57 clicks a month from you... but that's a risk i'm willing to take.

i feel much better.

totally better.

two versions of independence day... both of which i love

listen to one and then the other and know that i love them both so much i could never choose which independence day song was my favourite... this might be another example of things wrong with me.



and then the other



on that subject i think it's important that we all accept independence to be what it is...

1: not dependent: as a (1): not subject to control by others : self-governing (2): not affiliated with a larger controlling unit independent bookstore> b (1): not requiring or relying on something else : not contingent independent conclusion> (2): not looking to others for one's opinions or for guidance in conduct (3): not bound by or committed to a political party c (1): not requiring or relying on others (as for care or livelihood) <independent of her parents> (2): being enough to free one from the necessity of working for a living independent means> d: showing a desire for freedom independent manner> e (1): not determined by or capable of being deduced or derived from or expressed in terms of members (as axioms or equations) of the set under consideration; especially : having linear independence independent set of vectors> (2): having the property that the joint probability (as of events or samples) or the joint probability density function (as of random variables) equals the product of the probabilities or probability density functions of separate occurrence2capitalized : of or relating to the Independents3 a: main 5 independent clause> b: neither deducible from nor incompatible with another statement <independent postulates>

synonyms see free