something you might not know about me is that i have a temper. i rarely lose it and i try to never let it get the best of me even when i'm past the point of being patient or understanding. not a lot of people know this about me because usually i'm the one that can see all sides and understands everyone's point of view... even when that point of view is contrary to mine or it includes people not being a big fan of me or my actions. i mean the world takes all kinds.... and i am grateful for the opportunity to learn from all situations. only through the eyes of an enemy can you see the best and the worst version of yourself. i thank the people in my life that choose to be enemies for the chance to practice forgiveness and patience. i use it to practice being mindful about my words, behavior and the type of situations that i get myself into.
moreover, i usually refrain from defending myself or justifying my actions. i've learned after trying time and time again that there is no reason for defense or justification. if i've done something wrong i'll apologize and ask how to make it right. if i've done the right thing based on what i know in my core to be true and right then i will not defend it - think what you will and judge me how you will. i only have myself and the universe to be right with and i am at peace with both.
so the only thing i can say AT THIS POINT to the person of late who is really challenging my peaceful existence and policy of loving even your enemy is:
FUCKING EVOLVE ALREADY. GROW UP AND LET IT GO. THIS FALLS UNDER THE HEADING OF THE TRIFECTA: WORK, CRAZY OR STUPID AND WE'RE ALL FULL UP ON THAT SHIT HERE. JUST FUCKING EVOLVE. PLEASE! BECAUSE YOU ARE TRYING MY PATIENCE, MY FORGIVENESS AND MY LOVE.... AND IF WE'RE ALL BEING HONEST I DON'T WANT TO SPEND ANY MORE TIME ON IT. I WANT TO LIVE MY NICE LIFE WITHOUT WORRYING ABOUT WHETHER OR NOT OTHER PEOPLE GET IT.
and yes i feel much better now. much better thanks. and yes i know the internet is just a bunch of 1s and 0s anyway so who gives a shit really. even more importantly... i'm totally above this.... i'm literally and metaphorically above it.
3 comments:
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Damn, Lexi- stalked AGAIN?! Long time, no interface- I miss you, and I hope (besides whoever is buggin ya) that PA- ho- nix is still kind to the most real/ surreal person I've ever met- drop me a line sometime, and yes, I understand the phone works both ways- Keep it on straight, woman! That's an order : ) much love, friend
previous post by dave k, btw !
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