well... i'll tell you. for just a little while i would like for things to be easy. i'm not asking to win the lottery. i'm not asking to be perfect. i would just like to feel less overwhelmed with everything on my plate. my dad's health, being here dealing with that, worrying about what the future is going to be like, dealing with judgment and criticism, worrying about my move, worrying about my decisions, trying to be perfect all the time and failing like 50% of the time. i'd just like half the things on my plate. i realize i'm lucky. i realize i'm blessed. i realize i have very little to complain about but just for a few days.... for a few hours can things please just be easier? i little easier.
christian and dan might remember this phrase: i'm only one person and how much can i really do? it came with crying and weird breathing and standing outside in the rain because mommy needs her sleep, it was a bad bad night.
i think we might be nearing stage 5 freak out. i've been avoiding this sort of thing...
shit.
well... okay.
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